I wonder why am i doing here at this point of time, especially when i was suppose to study for my nation building CA tmr. But i have totally no mood for it since my mind doesnt wan to cooperate with me.

Things ended half a year ago.. wow.. and it sounds quite long ago. I thought that i'm all happy and cheerful like i used to be. No more hiding-in-the-room-and-cry nights, no more lying to my parents and no more worries on how he feels. I should feel more carefree but it came to my realisation these days that i might still be deceiving myself all along.

Dunno.. its jus a random thought.

And its all mentally taxing.

Maybe through my ES project i can get to know the ways to deal with mental stress.

This is the first time ever that i feel so strongly in giving up on a CA. Seriously, I have forgotten wat things that happen on wat year except the date of Singapore's independence. I think i'm going to smoke my way through tmr. But anyway, I pray for a C to S/U.