This new year hasnt been a very happy one indeed.

House visits to the grand uncles and realised that illness is catching up with their age. One has stroke and the other one couldnt move himself out of bed. Though i only visit them once a year, they have always been very nice to me. And in just a year's time, both of them has changed so much, from a healthy person to a bed-warded patient.

Scenes like these made me feel heavy hearted. I almost felt like crying but I made a great effort holding back my tears. Seriously, i think my EQ muz be damn low becos i always find it hard to control my emotionals, esp sadness.

And i heard that one of my granduncle is just "waiting for time". I cant help feeling sad after hearing this kind of words. This reminds me of the other granduncle who passed away last year. I cant help crying when i see other ppl cry. I cant help crying when i am afraid of losing someone close. Sometimes i cant help imagining my future, my parents. Wat would happen if something happen to them? Alrights, i have great imagination.

I wonder wat thoughts a person would have nearing his days. This must be pretty sad huh.. like the professor in "Tuesdays with Morrie". Just reading the first 2 chapters made tears rolling in my eyes. damn. I can really put myself in all kinds of stories. Maybe i shall try acting. haha..